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(foreword)
01:17
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Life in Color
03:47
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I would give anything to feel that way again; 19, unburdened by responsibility or the fear of going outside. My friends all together, our first taste of freedom before being slapped in the face by the realities of adulthood. It was bliss.
As I say that, it feels less than genuine. Everything looks nice through nostalgia colored glasses but I had all the same problems then as I do now. Looking backwards is futile self-sabotage. I'll be fine.
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Julius & Ethel
05:45
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I always thought that I could be special if I just tried until it was perfect. But it was naive of me to think that, naive to tell me when I was a child. Wasted my summer working for money so I could buy things I thought that I wanted, when I should have been starting a savings so I could move out and live with some friends. The tide is rising forth, don't get lost in it. Fed propaganda for 17 years. Public school drop-out finally wakes up, realizes we can be better humans. We don't have to deal with all of this bullshit. We can build something up from the ashes if we just band together as one force. We don't have to live like this. The tide is rising forth, don't get lost in it. The tide is rising forth, break your bonds and live.
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4. |
She
03:01
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Needle in the arm, feeling fading from me. Better close my eyes, lest I pass out. Pink around the wrist, I’m free to go now. Leave through the front door, and I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m gonna do with my life.
Drink some water, you didn’t lose a whole lot of blood back there, but a loss of blood’s still a loss of blood. So drink up, drink up, and so a toast, to all the things we’re leaving behind. To deadnames, addictions, and bodies that we hate, to cancers and blood clots and the risks that we take, to a new day, say hey, drink up while you can, because water is something we need to survive. I’m afraid to admit it, but I guess I’ll admit that I don’t know where I’m going, or what I’m gonna do with my life.
To hell with it all, I have broken the bindings around my wrists, and they fall. I am no longer stuck in this disgusting frame. My whole life I’ve been told to be who you are, but I haven’t been able to do that thus far, until somebody told me that I wasn’t all alone.
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Oar House
04:48
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I dropped you off at the Oar House. You said you didn't want to go. You said they're mean there and you don't like them. I wish you didn't have to go. But we're all born into a hurtful system--no one wanted any of this. Let's burn it down and embrace our freedom. Break our chains, life gets better than this. I went outside and started my car. Another day, the same routine--cleaning toilets for the children, a life of tedium I should have foreseen. But we're all born into a hurtful system--no one wanted any of this. Let's burn it down and embrace our freedom. Break our chains, life gets better than this. Burn it down, burn it down.
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Leaving
02:11
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Let's get out of town, let's try something new. Let's hop in the car and drive towards the moon. Leave our shit behind, we won't need it anymore. You won't miss a thing, not with the freedom that's in store. We won't have to worry about ourselves anymore. Doesn't that sound nice? Not a care in the world! Let's buy a bus, fix it up, and see the world. We can take our friends, don't wanna leave them behind. Oh what a beautiful thought! To actually feel alive! We won't have to worry about ourselves anymore.
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7. |
Don't Try Things
01:17
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I am feeling stuck. Torn between two lives. I don't know who I am--steadily losing desire to try to figure that out. I don't think I want to know. So I keep myself numb, have no emotions to show. It might be an empty life but living right is too hard. It's a big, scary world and I don't think I can make it on my own. So I sit here on my bed and wait as the hours tick by. Life is overwhelming, I'm done. I've lost all desire to try.
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I’d like to think that I’m a good person, though I’m bad at being a person. I’m unsure of how to take care of myself. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself. Don’t wanna be an adult, I’m eighteen in a week. Nothing will be the same, I can pretend, but it won’t be the same.
And when the forest fires come for you, will you use your net worth to save yourself? And when the forest fire comes to you, will you still pump fumes into the air? When the forest fire comes from you will you still treat your employees like dirt? When they’re tired of your abuse, will you tremble at the sight of the barrel?
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Danny, Be Well
05:15
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Danny, I hope you're okay. I hope somebody loves you. I hope that you're safe. I hope you're able to sell your car and get out of this state. Danny, I hope you're okay. Danny, I hope you get clean. Or at least as clean as you can be, as long as you're okay. I hope you get the help you need and make it to Montana in one piece. Danny, I hope you get clean. Danny, I hope you fall in love again. Danny I hope you flourish. I hope you find a nice warm bed. You deserve to be comfortable and to be given a second chance. Danny, I hope you fall in love again.
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10. |
Julius & Ethel, pt. 2
01:16
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My stomach will flatten, my body will become something more suited to a girl like me. My body will descend, my skin will become smooth. I will love myself, and I will love you too. And I could die alone, yeah that would be alright because I will live my life holding hands with friends. I will spread my love all across the world. You can't stop me now, you wouldn't if you could. The tide has risen forth and I got caught in it. But I've broken my bonds, I won't let them win. I got out on the shore and went to the hospital. I took my time to heal so I could fight the war.
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11. |
The Art of Moving On
04:22
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I can't convince myself that any of this is worth it. I can't get out of bed until I come to terms with the fact that my childhood is gone. Yeah, I've always had a hard time moving on. I don't want to move on. I remember sneaking into state parks after dark and hiding from the cops (FUCK THE COPS). I don't know if we were better then, all I know is that I felt better then. These days I wake up in the morning, I get stoned, and then I go to work. I come home and drink myself to sleep. Remember when drinking used to be fun?
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I opened the door, walked down the stairs. It was snowing outside. I felt a glowing in my heart. My life fell apart this year but I’m trying to put it back together. I’ve been trying to put it back together for a while now and I don’t know if what I’m doing is making any difference. I’ve just been working jobs and trying not to kill myself How was I supposed to cope when the world spun out of control? How were we supposed to take the reigns when you left? We didn't even know how to steer! So I lost myself! And so did everyone else!
And it still feels wrong without you. The summer will feel so long without you.
The lights go out. We're living at the end of time.
(Spiraling, swerving and losing the ones who we love is a part of life, it’s just the passage of time.
When I am twenty-five I will look back on all this mess and think that I am worried for nothing and)
I’m letting go
I’m letting go of your ghost because I have been grieving for over half a year and I love you but I need to let you go
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Floral Tattoo Seattle, Washington
autonomous collective
1312
alex (she/her)
numbers (any)
jake (he/him)
thos (any)
jan (she/they/it)
ryan (he/they)
veni (she/they/it)
photo: @fartsox on ig
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